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I don't have a problem with it...

[More accurately, he isn't sure how to think about it at all, and is having a tough time deciding. Something makes him feel uneasy, and although he doesn't know what it is, he gets the feeling that figuring it out is going to be part of this conversation.]

I mean, it's fine.

[Then why did he just automatically say that!! Aaahhh!! HE PANICKED,]

[He flicks his ears as he brings over the tea and settles again. Hmmmm. Those two responses didn't quite go together, and that deserves poking at gently!]

Is it really? Look...I want to be as sure of this as we can be before anyone gets hurt, you know? Even if that's not one hundred percent sure, that's fine and all. But I need to do what I can to take care of you too! The truth is, it's not a thing with Reigen, but there is someone else interested. We're not dating right now, just getting to know each other and if we like each other like that. But I'm not going to just do those things without talking to you. You're way too important for that!

[He peers down at the teacup and realizes he forgot to ask what kind of tea it is. But, maybe it being caffeinated would be good for him at this point. He decides not to ask before pulling it closer.]

I don't know. I'm really glad you feel that way about me, but it's not like I'm going to tell you that you should stop talking to anyone... And if you really like someone, I'm glad if they like you back!

[LET'S SAY IT'S NOT although that would sure be a direction for this thread to go in, but no it's an herbal one. this time

Magolor cups his own mug of tea near his face and hums.]

Well, if course you're not, and I wouldn't listen to you if you did! But I can be just friends with people too. That's what I mean. The people I like, like this person I mentioned—his name is Kurogiri, by the way! Anyway, I'd be happy just being friends with him too. It's not like I'd lose him entirely if nothing happened between us. That's why it's a lot more important to me that you and I are on the same page . . . I'd rather have only you as a lover than have five other lovers, but lose you in the process. Make sense?

I, I'm really glad you feel that way... But you wouldn't lose me! You're not going to lose me over something like that!

[He got too flattered by this hypothetical and forgot to get back to identifying whatever his problem actually is. Hmmm. He takes a long sip of tea as he tries to backtrack.]

Ummm. But, no, I mean... If it were me, and I wanted to date someone, I would want to keep dating them no matter what... probably. Even if I decided not to actually do it. And from my point of view as your boyfriend, if you want something, I want you to have it!

[TARANZA . . . ! Once any tea is safely out of the way, Magolor leans over to kiss him sweetly, mwah!]

You're truly kind and supportive . . . ! I really don't mind if you want to be selfish sometimes, you know? You wouldn't lose me for that either. I'm all about selfishness! But hearing you say something like that makes me happy, too. I'm all warm inside!

Ehehe...

[Now that they're both so happy he doesn't even want to try and figure out what it is at the back of his mind. But it will keep bothering him if he doesn't try!]

I dunno... I think my selfishness is different than yours is.

[Magolor just squishes in next to Taranza and goes back to his tea with a pleased hum. Cozy!]

Hmm, what's it like, then? I want to know all about it.

...Umm. I know you said at the beginning that we both love other people too, which is technically true and all, but...

I-Is it okay if I don't want to date anyone else?? I know it makes it kind of weird and lopsided...

Hmm? That's okay with me . . . I'm not sure how it's selfish, either! If you ever did want to, I'd be fine with it, of course. But if you don't, I don't expect you to force yourself or anything. I know some people only like one person at a time!

It's selfish when you're thinking about so many people and I'm only thinking about you! I could eat up all your time really easily if I was actually being that selfish.

[Even if he's getting a little more openly upset, he does feel relieved to have finally uncovered what it is that makes him uneasy about the situation.]

I see...

[He murmurs, thoughtfully and gently, and then reaches out to play with the ends of Taranza's hair a little.]

That's fine. I'm selfish too, because even though it's probably not the right thing to feel this way, I still like hearing you only want to think about me! ...The truth is, it is hard work dating more than one person, even though I'm having fun and I really love you both...because you truly deserve all of my time you want! I feel pretty bad that I can't magically give one hundred percent of my time each to you, Kei, and myself, since I do also love me. I'm just doing my best.

I... I'm doing my best too! So it's really fine! And, you're always so nice to me, and I'm really touched by your feelings for me, so even if we saw each other ten times less often than we do, I'd still feel happy every day thinking about it!

—Do you really like hearing it?

[Because if he gets too much encouragement he will continue to let his true obsessive power level slip, like just now.]

[OH NO. Magolor is definitely not one to NOT encourage people obsessing over him so that will just have to be how it is, hmm,

He is much more concerned right now with cozying up to Taranza than with his tea or cheesecake.]

I do! I'm shameless, sorry! And I can be just a little bit overbearing and clingy, so of course I have a selfish interest in your devotion...! As long as it doesn't make you unhappy.

I'm not unhappy at all...! I just get a little worried sometimes.

[He allows himself to indulge in leaning back against Magolor though. Overbearing and clingy!]

Because you're focused on me, is that it? Or about something else?

[They can indulge in clingy cuddling!]

I dunno, like maybe I'm being weird or creepy... Or too easy...

Well, I don't think you're any of those things, but it's not like I don't get it. I worry about that kind of thing too.

And you don't think maybe I'll be too boring after a while?? Even if you were any of those things, I wouldn't care anymore!

You aren't even a little bit boring! Don't worry about that. I would never want to be with anyone I thought was going to bore me. I've chosen you well, I can feel it!

Yeah, but... If you say it that way, does that mean that if you ever do think I'm boring, you're not going to be with me anymore?

[It really does express a lot of growth that he's actually raising his insecurities at all, rather than allowing them to fester. Even if it feels awkward.]

[And it likewise expresses a lot of growth on Magolor's part that he does Taranza the courtesy of actually thinking about this answer in a real and honest way rather than reassuring him without considering it deeply until later in private. They're growing!!]

. . . I wouldn't say that. If you or me or both of us were ever bored with things, I'd want to work that out instead of just giving up and moving on. You're a lot more important to me than just being interesting!

...Sorry about asking you so many questions. If you did have standards like that, it would probably be okay! But... thank you.

[He kisses Taranza on the cheek, huddling lightly against his side.]

Nothing to be sorry about! It's a relief, actually. I'd rather know exactly what you're worried about if you're worried! Seriously . . . the last thing I want is to live a life of romantic drama. I'm super finished with that! I just want to love people and be happy together with them. ♥ So, anything that makes that easier on me is like giving me a gift!

—It's a gift? ♥

[That idea clearly is exciting enough to cheer him up, especially when he's already insecure about not giving enough gifts (but also insecure about getting the wrong gift or maybe one that is horribly cursed)!]

I can make it really easy on you!

[That, however, is maybe not exactly the message he was supposed to take from this but.]

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