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[darkweb]

💕taranza💕
mature ✿ male ✿ royal road, floralia, pop star ✿ property of magolor

I'm the best and cutest boyfriend in the world, which is strange, since I also have the best and cutest boyfriend in the world! Ask me all about it sometime! (this message is magolor's fault! -taranza)

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[begguiling]

Hmm? That's okay with me . . . I'm not sure how it's selfish, either! If you ever did want to, I'd be fine with it, of course. But if you don't, I don't expect you to force yourself or anything. I know some people only like one person at a time!

[darkweb]

It's selfish when you're thinking about so many people and I'm only thinking about you! I could eat up all your time really easily if I was actually being that selfish.

[Even if he's getting a little more openly upset, he does feel relieved to have finally uncovered what it is that makes him uneasy about the situation.]

[begguiling]

I see...

[He murmurs, thoughtfully and gently, and then reaches out to play with the ends of Taranza's hair a little.]

That's fine. I'm selfish too, because even though it's probably not the right thing to feel this way, I still like hearing you only want to think about me! ...The truth is, it is hard work dating more than one person, even though I'm having fun and I really love you both...because you truly deserve all of my time you want! I feel pretty bad that I can't magically give one hundred percent of my time each to you, Kei, and myself, since I do also love me. I'm just doing my best.

[darkweb]

I... I'm doing my best too! So it's really fine! And, you're always so nice to me, and I'm really touched by your feelings for me, so even if we saw each other ten times less often than we do, I'd still feel happy every day thinking about it!

—Do you really like hearing it?

[Because if he gets too much encouragement he will continue to let his true obsessive power level slip, like just now.]

[begguiling]

[OH NO. Magolor is definitely not one to NOT encourage people obsessing over him so that will just have to be how it is, hmm,

He is much more concerned right now with cozying up to Taranza than with his tea or cheesecake.]

I do! I'm shameless, sorry! And I can be just a little bit overbearing and clingy, so of course I have a selfish interest in your devotion...! As long as it doesn't make you unhappy.

[darkweb]

I'm not unhappy at all...! I just get a little worried sometimes.

[He allows himself to indulge in leaning back against Magolor though. Overbearing and clingy!]

[begguiling]

Because you're focused on me, is that it? Or about something else?

[They can indulge in clingy cuddling!]

[darkweb]

I dunno, like maybe I'm being weird or creepy... Or too easy...

[begguiling]

Well, I don't think you're any of those things, but it's not like I don't get it. I worry about that kind of thing too.

[darkweb]

And you don't think maybe I'll be too boring after a while?? Even if you were any of those things, I wouldn't care anymore!

[begguiling]

You aren't even a little bit boring! Don't worry about that. I would never want to be with anyone I thought was going to bore me. I've chosen you well, I can feel it!

[darkweb]

Yeah, but... If you say it that way, does that mean that if you ever do think I'm boring, you're not going to be with me anymore?

[It really does express a lot of growth that he's actually raising his insecurities at all, rather than allowing them to fester. Even if it feels awkward.]

[begguiling]

[And it likewise expresses a lot of growth on Magolor's part that he does Taranza the courtesy of actually thinking about this answer in a real and honest way rather than reassuring him without considering it deeply until later in private. They're growing!!]

. . . I wouldn't say that. If you or me or both of us were ever bored with things, I'd want to work that out instead of just giving up and moving on. You're a lot more important to me than just being interesting!

[darkweb]

...Sorry about asking you so many questions. If you did have standards like that, it would probably be okay! But... thank you.

[begguiling]

[He kisses Taranza on the cheek, huddling lightly against his side.]

Nothing to be sorry about! It's a relief, actually. I'd rather know exactly what you're worried about if you're worried! Seriously . . . the last thing I want is to live a life of romantic drama. I'm super finished with that! I just want to love people and be happy together with them. ♥ So, anything that makes that easier on me is like giving me a gift!

[darkweb]

—It's a gift? ♥

[That idea clearly is exciting enough to cheer him up, especially when he's already insecure about not giving enough gifts (but also insecure about getting the wrong gift or maybe one that is horribly cursed)!]

I can make it really easy on you!

[That, however, is maybe not exactly the message he was supposed to take from this but.]

[begguiling]

[IT'S A GIFT THE ANCIENTS HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH!]

Oh, how's that? It is, though! I'm very grateful for your honesty! I'm trying to be my most honest and best for you too.

[darkweb]

I can be really non-dramatic! And you're still super nice to me, and I feel like I can trust you with a lot, so everything you're doing is working very well!

[begguiling]

You're flattering meeee~! No, thank you. I'm super relieved to hear it! It's not like I don't worry. I'm not experienced in this either, you know? I'm just trying not to do what I've seen other people do that made them miserable. And because I only love the very top tier of people, that means you deserve to be treated as top tier, obviously!

[darkweb]

I-I feel so honored, I don't want to waste the opportunity!

[begguiling]

Don't worry yourself too much about it, okay? I'm not going to come down on you if you mess up some or anything. That's not the kind of drama I mean!

[darkweb]

...What kind of drama do you mean?

[He wasn't conflating mistakes with drama or anything—those are two separate concerns—but now he really is curious.]

[begguiling]

Mmmmm . . . the type where people lie to each other, or don't talk things out, I guess. Or go behind one another's backs! That's what I'm trying not to do here. I know too many people who've had to go through misery in love because they didn't just have a conversation. It's the stupidest thing I've ever seen! Well, not that I don't get it. I know if I'd tried dating a year ago or whatever, I'd have pulled that same kind of thing. But I've learned by bad examples!

[darkweb]

That really happens that often? What kind of conversations are they avoiding?

[This is the fear of someone who is definitely suppressing some conversations that could be had. But, now they just talked about the Magolor stuff, so it's only non-Magolor-related stuff!!]

[begguiling]

Oh, stuff like "I've been in love with you for years but I can't just say it so you think I might actually hate you" or "we're getting married and I don't want to have a big party but I assume you do and I want you to have anything you want even if I hate it, so I'm hiding in the other room from our guests," you know, that kind of thing. Those are just two examples!