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[darkweb]

💕taranza💕
mature ✿ male ✿ royal road, floralia, pop star ✿ property of magolor

I'm the best and cutest boyfriend in the world, which is strange, since I also have the best and cutest boyfriend in the world! Ask me all about it sometime! (this message is magolor's fault! -taranza)

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[darkweb]

I'm not unhappy at all...! I just get a little worried sometimes.

[He allows himself to indulge in leaning back against Magolor though. Overbearing and clingy!]

[begguiling]

Because you're focused on me, is that it? Or about something else?

[They can indulge in clingy cuddling!]

[darkweb]

I dunno, like maybe I'm being weird or creepy... Or too easy...

[begguiling]

Well, I don't think you're any of those things, but it's not like I don't get it. I worry about that kind of thing too.

[darkweb]

And you don't think maybe I'll be too boring after a while?? Even if you were any of those things, I wouldn't care anymore!

[begguiling]

You aren't even a little bit boring! Don't worry about that. I would never want to be with anyone I thought was going to bore me. I've chosen you well, I can feel it!

[darkweb]

Yeah, but... If you say it that way, does that mean that if you ever do think I'm boring, you're not going to be with me anymore?

[It really does express a lot of growth that he's actually raising his insecurities at all, rather than allowing them to fester. Even if it feels awkward.]

[begguiling]

[And it likewise expresses a lot of growth on Magolor's part that he does Taranza the courtesy of actually thinking about this answer in a real and honest way rather than reassuring him without considering it deeply until later in private. They're growing!!]

. . . I wouldn't say that. If you or me or both of us were ever bored with things, I'd want to work that out instead of just giving up and moving on. You're a lot more important to me than just being interesting!

[darkweb]

...Sorry about asking you so many questions. If you did have standards like that, it would probably be okay! But... thank you.

[begguiling]

[He kisses Taranza on the cheek, huddling lightly against his side.]

Nothing to be sorry about! It's a relief, actually. I'd rather know exactly what you're worried about if you're worried! Seriously . . . the last thing I want is to live a life of romantic drama. I'm super finished with that! I just want to love people and be happy together with them. ♥ So, anything that makes that easier on me is like giving me a gift!

[darkweb]

—It's a gift? ♥

[That idea clearly is exciting enough to cheer him up, especially when he's already insecure about not giving enough gifts (but also insecure about getting the wrong gift or maybe one that is horribly cursed)!]

I can make it really easy on you!

[That, however, is maybe not exactly the message he was supposed to take from this but.]

[begguiling]

[IT'S A GIFT THE ANCIENTS HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH!]

Oh, how's that? It is, though! I'm very grateful for your honesty! I'm trying to be my most honest and best for you too.

[darkweb]

I can be really non-dramatic! And you're still super nice to me, and I feel like I can trust you with a lot, so everything you're doing is working very well!

[begguiling]

You're flattering meeee~! No, thank you. I'm super relieved to hear it! It's not like I don't worry. I'm not experienced in this either, you know? I'm just trying not to do what I've seen other people do that made them miserable. And because I only love the very top tier of people, that means you deserve to be treated as top tier, obviously!

[darkweb]

I-I feel so honored, I don't want to waste the opportunity!

[begguiling]

Don't worry yourself too much about it, okay? I'm not going to come down on you if you mess up some or anything. That's not the kind of drama I mean!

[darkweb]

...What kind of drama do you mean?

[He wasn't conflating mistakes with drama or anything—those are two separate concerns—but now he really is curious.]

[begguiling]

Mmmmm . . . the type where people lie to each other, or don't talk things out, I guess. Or go behind one another's backs! That's what I'm trying not to do here. I know too many people who've had to go through misery in love because they didn't just have a conversation. It's the stupidest thing I've ever seen! Well, not that I don't get it. I know if I'd tried dating a year ago or whatever, I'd have pulled that same kind of thing. But I've learned by bad examples!

[darkweb]

That really happens that often? What kind of conversations are they avoiding?

[This is the fear of someone who is definitely suppressing some conversations that could be had. But, now they just talked about the Magolor stuff, so it's only non-Magolor-related stuff!!]

[begguiling]

Oh, stuff like "I've been in love with you for years but I can't just say it so you think I might actually hate you" or "we're getting married and I don't want to have a big party but I assume you do and I want you to have anything you want even if I hate it, so I'm hiding in the other room from our guests," you know, that kind of thing. Those are just two examples!

[darkweb]

...That does seem pretty serious... But I guess I do see how someone would end up in a situation like that.

Now that you mention it, I'm really glad we can talk about things!

[begguiling]

Mm, me too! Me too. I have to try hard to fight back the part of me that also totally gets how someone could end up in those situations, but I think I'm doing all right so far. And you're doing great! I was trying to say that it's probably fine if we mess it up a liiiiittle sometimes, though. I'm not going to dump you.

[darkweb]

I'm not going to dump you either! So—I think you also need to worry less about it. You don't have to ask my permission for everything as long as you just tell me about it.

[begguiling]

...Okay. You're right!

[He leans over to give Taranza another affectionate nuzzle. He's right!! It surprises even Magolor how much better he feels hearing that.]

I guess I really was worried more than I thought I was! I know I don't want to lose you!

[darkweb]

I definitely know how you feel... Although, you're the first person who's felt that way about me! But I don't want you to worry!